The Journey to Now

 

I’ve debated whether or not to actually publish this post, but after a lot of back and forth in my head, I decided to do so. Why? Because this journey that we have been on for the last 3.5 years has shaped me into becoming the person that I am today. Along with that, I think it’s helpful for people to get to know a bit about me on a personal level in order to appreciate me and my work as a photographer.

A couple of weeks ago, Danny and I had our own photo session with the fabulous Jenny GG Photography to document this moment in our lives. (The photos in this post were all taken by Jenny…Check out more of her work here.)

I know, I know…some of you may think that getting maternity photos taken is silly or trite. But, to us? It was a necessary step in documenting our life together.  You see, getting pregnant for us didn’t just happen overnight (or when we just relaxed, or while on vacation, or after praying really hard, or after trying it “this” way…all of which were suggested to us (and I won’t lie, all were tried)).

Our journey started out like that of many…we’d decided to take the next step towards starting our own family. And, let me tell ya – the perfectionist in me was gonna be really good at this whole “getting pregnant” thing!!  Funny how life has other plans for you. About 6 months later, we were in fact diagnosed with infertility. For whatever reason, this diagnoses is one that isn’t talked about much in the public world. (Don’t even get me started on the issue that really the only public examples of infertility are that of Jon & Kate Gosselin and “Octomom” Nadya Suleman…For the record, they are not the “standard” of comparison and just because someone is struggling with infertility does not mean they get pregnant with 8 babies nor will they get their own reality show.).

But surprisingly, about 1 out of every 6 couples will experience infertility in some form or another.

Throughout this journey, we have definitely faced an extreme roller coaster of emotions. Ranging all across the board with denial,  bitterness, anger, fear, sadness, jealousy, seclusion, hope, disappointment, hopelessness, faith, courage, &  strength. You name it – we felt it!

It was during this struggle that I really dove into my passion for photography head first. It has always been a passion of mine, but during this time it provided me with an outlet, a creative place to go with my camera and not have to think about the fact that we were struggling to get pregnant. At the same time, I am able to document milestones  and memories for other families that they will be able to look back on and cherish.

When we finally made the decision to pursue our desire to become parents with the help of In-Vitro Fertilization (IVF) – that added a whole ‘nother roller coaster that we would soon be going through (not to mention what it would do to  my body and our finances!).   Yes, in a matter of  3 weeks, I gave myself (or rather, Danny gave me) 67 injections.  That doesn’t include the blood draws or the acupuncture I did during the whole process, either.  These injections came with some pretty heavy side effects.  But, as you can see from the photos…we are one of the lucky ones! IT WORKED! When the doctor called to tell us we were pregnant… we couldn’t believe it!!

We’d waited 3 years for those words and to finally hear them was surreal.

A few weeks later, we found out that we were pregnant with TWINS!! A few weeks after that we found out that we’d lost one of them and were no longer pregnant with twins. The bright side? We were still pregnant!

So yeah, to sum it up… we struggled to get pregnant. It happens. It sucked. But, in the end – we are lucky.  It could have been worse. So many people will go through multiple rounds of IVF and never get to experience a positive result.   Other couples practically just  look at each other and get pregnant – and without even realizing it they can take for granted what a miracle the entire process really is.

 

To say I wouldn’t change the path we had to take to get here would be a bit of a lie, but I will say that I know that because of this experience…     We have become much stronger as a couple, fell more in love with each other and we will be BETTER PARENTS for having gone through all that we have.

We will cherish every moment and not take for granted the little things…for it’s those little things in life we usually look back on and realize they were the big things!

We are soooo excited for the next step in our journey together and to meet our little Kylie Grace ~

 

She is loved so much already – I can’t even fathom what it will be like once she is here!

 

(Thanks again to Jenny GG for capturing our love and our hard-earned belly bump!)

Update: Both our little miracle babies are here now!

They are keeping us on our toes every day!

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  • Lilian - It’s great to find an expert who can exlpain things so wellReplyCancel

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  • Team Pink or Team Blue?? - […] This came as quite the miraculous surprise to us given all that we had to go through in order to get pregnant with Kylie. (For that story…go here.) […]ReplyCancel

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  • Laurie Potter ( Grandma) - WOW!! Sarah that was a beautiful story of your journey together. I had to get the box of kleenex out to wipe my tears away.
    Dad and I love the two of you soooooo much and are beyond excited to meet our beautiful Kylie Grace. What a special Christmas this will be!!!
    This family is getting the best Christmas gift we could ask for. You both will be wonderful parents without a doubt to Kylie. She is already loved by this family, more than she will ever know.
    When Kylie arrives, and you set eyes on your beautiful baby girl, those 67+ injections will be all worth the miracle of Kylie Grace. Can’t wait to smooch her.

    Love all three of you xoxoxoxoxoReplyCancel

  • Lisa Scriven - Wow!!!!! Iam an emotional mess now! I love you guys sooooo much, and are so happy for you both! You guys are going to be the best parents ever and Kylie is so lucky to have you both. It’s really hard to hear the story that way and what you went through, but will be sooooooooooo worth every shot you took and all the pain you went through the minute you see that beautiful baby girl!!!!!!!! I love you guys so much and can hardly wait for December:)

    You are an amazing women Sarah to keep going, even though Iam sure their were times you wanted to give up. We ALL love you guys.
    LOVE ALL OF US 🙂ReplyCancel

  • Katie Howell - Sarah, wow! I couldn’t read this without the waterworks. Where’s a tissue when I need one? This has been a long journey for you both. I am so glad there was a bright outcome. I always knew as a young girl that my “big brother” would be a good daddy because as his “baby sister”, he was someone I looked up to. He was a good big brother to me, taking me to movies and ice cream, to the beach, and playing basketball with me in the driveway. He was protective of me and I know he will be protective of Kylie too. And I ‘m so glad that he has a loving and beautiful wife to spend his life with. You will be a great mom as well. And together you will have the family you both so truly deserve. Best wishes for an easy (with the help of an epidural)and fun delivery. XOXOReplyCancel

  • MaryKate - What a wonderful, honest and much needed perspective on fertility, babies and the process of becoming the amazing person you are today. May your continued journey be full of all the wonderful stuff life is made of, and I wish both (plus baby) of you continued grace, delight and strength as you move forward on your path.

    <3
    MaryKateReplyCancel

  • Karen Olsen (Grama) - Sarah, Well………it took me several kleenex to get through this blog. Dad and I are so excited for the both of you and can hardly wait to meet our newest grandchild Kylie. I can think of no better Christmas gift than her birth.
    We love you and Danny so much and know that you will be the best of parents.
    Mom XOXOXReplyCancel

  • Joyce Mitchell (Auntie) - I needed a good cry before work this morning! I am more excited for you and Danny and Kylie than I have EVER been for ANYONE! Can’t wait to meet my very special and GRAND niece, Kylie Grace…not much longer now.ReplyCancel

  • Melissa Whitney - Wow! I’m am so emotional after reading that! Not so much out of sadness for your past journey, but out of joy for the moments you have lying ahead in your future! Kylie is so blessed to have you two, a mommy and daddy that love her more than she could ever know!ReplyCancel

  • Mollie Mitchell - Awwww. My wise and wonderful cousin. All that you said is true. You and Danny are so ready to be amazing parents. Kylie is so loved already and I can’t wait to meet her. Lots of love to you and Danny both! I can’t wait to see you both next weekend!ReplyCancel

  • Lynn Severance - Ah, Sarah – breathtaking photos and one amazing love story of persevering in hope in trust.
    God must have a beautiful plan for your Kylie Grace. He has taken such care in preparing you and Danny to be the parents to whom she is entrusted.

    I have so many friends who have struggled with infertility – one has a whole website and ministry dedicated to “Moms”.
    Eventually, she and her husband were able to conceive but , as you know, there were so many steps of heartbreak along that journey ( and miscarriages).

    I am so excited for you and Danny.
    I am sure there will be many more photos when Kylie makes her appearance to the outside world.
    Your photos and story will be an inspriation to many.
    Love,
    Lynn xoxoReplyCancel

  • Margaret M. - Thank you for sharing.. thank you for your heartfelt honesty.. thanks for being the lovely, lovely human being that you are… Our most difficult moments indeed shape and encourage our growth, they help us unfold… the maturity and depth of character you both have gained and embraced from the challenge of this is truly inspiring… looking forward to hearing and seeing your next step as a beloved family..xoxoReplyCancel

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